da incorrigible SAZEAL

May 13th 2006

WoW!!! i've finaaly been able to figure out the kind of people i respect (or genuinely like)... Surprisingly, these are the people who like me and despise me, at the same time.

I don't think i like people who like me for all i've acheived or i'm expected to acheive; i like people who like me for the way i live my life, the way i do my things, the way i work, though they might not really approve of it in toto... To say the least, i dont quite agree with people who adore me for some specific reasons, for thr are none... i like those who like me for no reason whatsoever... thts the irony of it all

Well, while i was goin thru all this, i started wondering... why should i like or not like someone (anyone) at all? wht is the logic (if at all) behind all this? (well, logic is one other shady topic, but lets leav tht for other time)

As we've heard, "too much ofsweet tastes bitter". by experience i can also say tht too much of bitter also tastes sweet...

Coming back to wht i was sayin,i respect people who like me for wht i am - the real Sazeal and not his potentials and abilities and achievements and...
Well, u'd say, tht even thts a part of Sazeal, isn't it? "Exactly!", i'd say... people who like a part of me either means they dont like the whole of me or they dont know the whole of me... And then it would be cheating to say anything about me, won't it? well, not cheating in literal sense, but cheating all the same.

What the heck! i can't avoid this even if i want... all this talk would sound too egotistical to ye all, huh?
Maybe! but isn't tht important? coz if i cant respect the "I", i cant respect anything at all.
Lemme clarify, i am neither talkin about the "materialistic I" or the selfless "spiritual I"... I am talkin about the whole of I that includes the 2 definitions and all the definitions around....